Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Love has taken my practices and turned them to poetry

Thank you for singing

thank you for singing

i feel like God would tell you that
as you unload your groceries
and the kids run off to play

_________

I want someone who 
even and especially 
looking into their eyes
enlivens my soul

I want someone
that will dream
about pushing the limits
of love and ecstasy
with me 
in this life

in a million different ways
expressing the divine
to one another
and a hungry world

_____

God has taken me and brought me into an entirely new realm of existence.
It is in my heart, and in the invisible places that i exist
There is truly no limit to the depths our soul can touch
of beauty, of sorrow, of love

i cannot sit still
often i feel as though i will explode from the inside
oh consume me Sacred Fire 









Wednesday, October 20, 2010

It happens all the time in heaven

It happens all the time in heaven,
And some day

It will begin to happen
Again on earth-

That men and women who are married
And men and men who are
Lovers,

And women and women
Who give each other Light,

Often will get down on their knees

And while so tenderly
Holding their lover's hand,

With tears in their eyes,
Will sincerely speak, saying,

"My dear,
How can I be more loving to you;

How can I be more
Kind?"

This is one of the poems of Hafiz, a great Persian poet who is changing my life by his ancient words...

Today I was at hair school, and I was talking to a Chinese friend of mine. She was telling me all about her marriage, all about marriage... And she told me that at first love is very nice but then after 7 or 8 years it just gets so hard, when you're married.... She said that I should be careful because if you find a nice guy and there is deep love then that's good. But if there is not a deep love, she says, you just end up hurting each other very much and life is then better lived single, because you can be happy single. Telling me of the past problems of her marriage she told me that she had wanted a divorce for years, even though they have four children, until her husband finally came to her and begged a second chance. And now he cares about how his actions effect her. And now he is kinder....

I couldn't help but ask myself, what if people just lived to be kind to eachother....how does such a lack of love come into a relationship that is supposed to be the person you have found to love more than all others...

We were never meant to be so poor in love. There is a Well, an endless Source...who wants to engage your heart, who yearns for you to draw of his rich resources.

I wonder how I can be more kind to the people in my life. To strangers. To those who are unkind to me. To myself. I think that the nature of heaven is waiting there for us all to enter in. It is the way of Love and it is not necessarily easy. Your pride may have to die. Other things that you value may even have to go by the way side. It just might cost you.

But i just wonder if we have any idea what we are missing out on by living in any other state than Love, by walking in any other way than the way of Love...

Sunday, October 17, 2010

begginings

So I go to a used book store one day hoping to find my next good read and I ask God to show me which books to read. So i stumble upon this book called "all about love; new visions" and another called something like "the road less traveled." so obviously those were the ones. So a few weeks later I'm in  Dolores park, lounging around on a wendsday afternoon reading "all about love," and i get so inspired i decide that i have to go home and write a blog. right now. so i pack up my things and as i do the book kinda falls open to the inside where the title is printed again, and I read a note written, "Lauren!! to love that can inspire your writing." and then its signed by the author...
um what?
so i go home and a few weeks later when i finally got around to posting it, here it is.
I plan to include thoughts, stories, revelations, and probably many excerpts that have propelled me into heart revelations or something of the like.  For now i leave you with a blessing;

may Love surround you in every way, may it penetrate every part of your being and guide your every step, may you become unmistakably aware of Its presence and may it elevate your spirit to joy and laughter