Can I be vunerable?

Can I be vulnerable with you?
I write because I cannot but write. Everything tells me that I must share what Wisdom is teaching me, every day in every dimension, every part of my being. It's like God, and I will call him God because that's who I believe I'm talking about...disregard all your prejudices about him for a moment. don't you think in your heart prejudice should end anyways...like every time you look at another human being, can you naught but see your maker's face. Maybe you don't, maybe when you see women they remind you of your bitter controlling mom, maybe you don't, maybe, when you look at a man you see your father who left you...and thats hard. forgiveness is the key that will free you from the past. but when love gets ahold of you. and you get drunk on the One. you begin to see.

do you want to see?

when God gets ahold of you. he inundates your being so that you cannot help but for lack of a better word, ooze love. i just wanna ooze love to everyone and everything. i cant help it.  Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. ⁸Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. anyone who loves...anyone...

       my heart longs to love. to love in a way that cant be offended. to love in a way that doesn't judge or takes itself back when one is offended. i have no idea what it's supposed to look like but i know that true life comes no other way. to live in Love and Love in you. this is the essence of the Gospel, it is the reason for our existence. for us to be consumed by love and by that become a part of Love. i believe we all came from God who is love, and well all go back to Him in the end. there is very little talking about this any more. we went to church as kids but our father did not tell us the account of the Great Spirit and his relationship with Him in all his battles and triumphs.

I don't even know where i'm going with all this i just like to ramble being the crazy drunk one that i am.
I'm so drunk on God's love I can't see straight.

T was also thinking about how our entire economy is an example of how faith determines reality. Faith can not only move mountains, it can do just about anything. it can do almost as much as love. and together i believe they might be unstoppable.

where am i going with this? i'm not quite sure. but it has to do with the goodness of God. and believing for the outer limits of His grace. his goodness. and the richness of his being, from which we were made to feed on day after day.

close your eyes and think like the sunset. and how it goes to the outer reaches of the heavens and still there is more beyond. in how many dimensions is the sunset stretched? we have no idea what the answer is, i assure you. and then, it goes beyond that. to solar systems and literal galaxies that exist but we have never even seen. Ok so then think about you and how maybe God had such goodness for your life...and not even for just your life here, or just your physical being, but also your spiritual being that will live forever...that everything, everything he is using for your good, that he 100% loves you 100% of the time no matter what you do or what you've done...that he's 100% there for you all the time and he's never let you fall too far. I dunno. I think what I'm suggesting. and for the sake of speaking to everybody ill come out and say it, even though i may be more cryptic from now on, this spelling it out is work...but im just suggesting that life is good, that you are good, that God is good, that our destiny is love, that we are all ok, that everything is rich when you know God...i dont know, i guess somethings aren't fully explainable. but anyways, were all invited. were all meant to be God's spoiled rotten kids. =)

some poems from me with love

Sometimes…

Sometimes i get a glimpse,

like a mirror from another realm catches my eye

and i remember

as light gleams out 

igniting the spot in my eye

that sparkles when love comes near,

that i should promise my heart again

promise my heart

not to miss life

when its passing right before me

ripe for the eating

and slurping of its juiciness

off our delicious fingers

____________________________

One with Him

He's wanting you

to become 

one with Him

which of course

is a surrender 

like i surrendered last night 

when i let my lover

kiss me silly

some poems of Hafiz for you

Hafiz is a poet from the 1300's in persia...he is my favorite poet I have ever happened upon and i delight to share these words that unlock the door to the unseen for you and for me =) blessings to all- Lau


The Theater of Freedom

In my divine studio
What i have been working on is this:

Painting the Truth,
Revealing
A more realistic picture of God,

Tearing down the cruel walls
That separate you from the tenderness of Fire.

Someone must be withholding
The crucial lines
In all those stories you have heard of our
Friend,

For there is still too much fear
And pallor upon your cheeks,

And I rarely see you
In the marvelous Theater of Freedom.

Hafiz knows
You could not describe him

Even if we sat side by side on a caravan
For years,

Even if we slept close in my desert tent
And you became familiar

With the holy scent
That the sun and my Master leave,
Whenever they visit me,

For something has happened
To your youthful passions,

That great fuel
You once had to defend yourself
Against becoming tamed.

And your eyes now often tell me
That your once vital talent to extract joy
From the air
Has fallen into a sleep.

All that you could ever say of me
Can only describe my camel's tail--

And that coarse hair
That is barely visible sometimes
On the left side of the moon's nose.

In my divine studio
Where I am sitting right now
Crafting your heart, lyre
and flute,

I long for the day when you will join me
In knowing

The extraordinary humor
And all the enchanting realities

Of the infinite performances
Of
God.

________

In A Tree House

Light
Will someday split you open
Even if your life is now a cage,

For a divine seed, the crown of destiny,
Is hidden and sown on an ancient, fertile plain
You hold the title to.

Love will surely bust you wide open
Into an unfettered, blooming new galaxy

Even if your mind is now
A spoiled mule.

A life-giving radiance will come,
The Friend's gratuity will come--

O look again within yourself,
For I know you were once the elegant host
To all the marvels in creation.

From a sacred crevice in your body
A bow rises each night
And shoots your soul into God.

Behold the Beautiful Drunk Singing One
From the lunar vantage point of love.

He is conducting the affairs
Of the whole universe

While throwing wild parties
In a tree house----on a limb
In your heart.

kisses from God are coming to you

so many people ask me, am i religious. and i try to answer them but its like, how do i even begin to tell you of the limits my heart has known in God. religion has nothing to do with it. its a relationship, its a spiritual communion, God's my dearest friend, my breath, my life, my joy, my comfort... it's like this crazy ecstasy of being thats taking me over. its like Christ in me, or my Buddah nature, or my truest form of being, or whatever it is...me, inside God himself is the thing that's taking me over. It feels like love and peace and joy and the drunkeness of wine. right now poems are doing something splendid and divine in my heart. God's speaking to me and what i'm hearing is transforming my heart and my being...

May you let God kiss you today...

Jesus said, 

drink my wine

you will become me 

i will become you

and all that is hidden

you will see

with your own eyes

              the gospel of Thomas

the sky's sheets

When He touches me I clutch the sky's sheets

the way other

lovers

do

the earth's weave 

of clay.

Any real ecstasy is a sign

you are moving

in the right 

direction, 

don't let any prude tell

you otherwise.

      ---St. Theresa de Avila 

School of Truth

O fool, do something, so you won't just stand there looking dumb.

If you are not traveling and on the road, how can you call yourself a guide?

In the School of Truth, one sits at the feet of the Master of Love.

So listen, son, so that one day you may be an old father, too!

All this eating and sleeping has made you ignorant and fat;

By denying yourself food and sleep, you may still have a chance.

Know this: If God should shine His lovelight on your heart,

I promise you'll shine brighter than a dozen suns.

And I say: wash the tarnished copper of your life from your hands;

To be Love's alchemist, you should be working with gold.

Don't sit there thinking; go out and immerse yourself in God's sea.

Having only one hair wet with water will not put knowledge in that head.

For those who see only God, their vision

Is pure, and not a doubt remains.

Even if our world is turned upside down and blown over by the wind,

If you are doubtless, you won't lose a thing.

O Hafiz, if it is union with the Beloved that you seek,

Be the dust at the Wise One's door, and speak!

                                            --Hafiz

___________________

If you stop for but a moment

still your heart

and open wide your Spirit

afraid as you may be

the Spirit would 

most certainly begin 

to consume you

to take your hurts and your fears

to whisper peace to your weary soul

to kiss you a million times

with tender loving kindness

you'd laugh and squeal

like a baby 

delighted by the caresses of 

his mother

you were made for this

                                --Lauren